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New Years Resolutions

As every year, my resolution will be to lose weight. Everyone and their dog makes this resolution every year. I succeeded in losing 25lbs last year. I was pretty thrilled about that. This year, I’m aiming for 50lbs.  I’ve signed up for Livestrong and I’m going to keep up with my food and exercises tracking for the entire year if I can. If I miss a day or two, that’s fine, but I’m gonna do my best to keep it up.

I’m successfully off sodas and I’m not using large amounts of apple juice to fill the sugar void. In fact, I’ve decreased the sugar in my decaf tea and gotten into water pretty heavily.

I’ve slowed down on the pasta and rice, so my diet is getting healthier now. I just have to keep from eating anything unhealthy that’s put in front of me.

And work out. I’m gonna be walking for half an hour every night that it’s not raining. Parts of that may be jogging, possibly. Eventually, I’ll be running.

So wish me luck.

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Nightmares and Reality

I had a dream last night that I was finishing my degree. Only had two semesters left for my diploma. I was moving back into the dorms. And I realized that none of the classes I needed worked with my work schedule. And I couldn’t pay my rent without my job. If I didn’t pay my rent, I’d be letting my roommate down. I cried. What was I doing? What was I thinking trying to go back to school? I had so many responsibilities and I was letting them fail. How could I be so selfish?

I woke up upset. Going back to school has been a thorn in my side for a while. With fears of not being able to get in, responsibilities I’ve taken on since graduation and the knowledge that it won’t pay for itself, I’ve all but decided that grad school is not going to happen for me. It hurts, but that’s the reality.

Last night was the first time I’ve ever thought about grad school as anything but a golden sanctuary or a goal that I’m just plain failing to reach. It was a nightmare. I think my subconscious helped me finally let go of that.

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Fiscal LiveWithinOurMeans, Social Don’tGiveAFuck

I like to think I won’t cover politics here, but I would be fooling myself. I will occasionally talk about it, and I know I will. I’m going to let my stance be known early to avoid any confusion.

I’m an independent. I don’t have the luxury of voting FOR anyone. I always end up voting AGAINST someone who will damage our country. Giant Turd vs. Douche Sandwich, as South Park so aptly put it. But if there was a policy I could completely believe in, it would be this.

1. Live within our means. This goes for every private citizen as well as the government as a whole. Quit spending money we don’t have. Our government had to borrow to give trillions of dollars that our country didn’t have to banks who lost money on defaulted loans. Loans. Borrowed money. If we didn’t all take out loans we couldn’t afford, the government wouldn’t have had to take out more loans to cover the banks.

The banks didn’t crash our economy. We did.

2. Everyone pays the same percentage in their taxes, with no breaks or deductions.

This is another one that people will hate me for, but I’m going to say it anyway. Taxes should not be a different percentage based on how much you make. It should be the same low rate for everyone regardless of how much you made or how you made it.  You can’t exclude charitable donations, you can’t exclude tuition, you can’t exclude interest on loans, or insurance principles.

You pay a certain percentage of your earnings in taxes, just like everyone else, and you get on with your day.

The amount the Government gets from those taxes is enough for operations if they cut things down.

3. Let The People Be Responsible For Themselves

This is the Social Don’tGiveAFuck. The government should not have ANY word on who can get married and who can’t, how much someone is paid, how much can be charged for a good, if you can get an abortion, if you can put your kid up for adoption, whether you adopt alone or with a partner, whether you can adopt with a partner of the same sex, whether the church can marry someone or can refuse to marry someone.

This should not be on the backs of the government. Change has ALWAYS started in the minds of the people long before the government gets involved. (Slavery was almost non-existent in both the north and south when the Emancipation Proclamation was signed.)

The path we’re on now is dangerous. The government is expanding into people’s lives and taxing the next generation to death. If we start cutting it down now, we might recover as a nation.

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Everything’s A Text

One of the best things I learned in Literary Criticism is that everything is a text. Books, poetry, short stories, plays, psalms, inscriptions, articles, essays etc  are texts, of course, but so are photographs, paintings, dances, films, songs, and even people. Everything can be analyzed as a text. Everything can be appreciated as a text.

In that sense, I’m going to share a couple of my favorite video texts.

Storm by Tim Minchin on YouTube

This is a beat poem. It has text but it is not JUST text. If it lacked the music and animation, the effect would be gone.

All About My Dog – Marimo

In a BAWWW thread, amidst Ugly the Cat and Forever Alone, I found a japanese video about a girl and her dog. I hurt and I sobbed and I HIT REPLAY.

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Batwoman: Elegy

I don’t typically review Graphic Novels but I occasionally find one that needs to be reviewed. Batwoman was one of those. It’s hailed for being Batwoman in the comic world and it’s disregarded for being Batwoman in the literary world. No one is seeing where the value lies.

Batwoman: Elegy is a LGBT graphic novel plus Batman. It was more forthcoming with backstory than Batman was on a comic to comic basis but when you make the main character a lesbian discharged from the army you’ve got a lot of backstory to cover. As a Batman story, it was subpar. I’ve certainly read worse, but this is not one of the greats. If the LGBT issues don’t interest you, don’t pick it up.

The depth of her backstory is told in a series of flashbacks after the plot has climaxed. If you were willing to go through the flashbacks, though, you’d find the most important information about Batwoman. Her discharge from the army and desire to serve was the catalyst to becoming Batwoman. Her father’s support, unique to this Batman hero, in face of her discharge and her vigilante work was very important to her character as well.

If you aren’t that interested in the LGBT parts of the story, you can skip the Seven Years Ago chapter and miss very little. Flip through the pages and you’ll get pretty pictures and you’ll get the first time she meets Batman and realizes her calling.

LGBT themes

Batwoman does cover common themes  in most modern LGBT literature: DADT and the Closet.

Throughout the story, Kate Kane has four romantic interests. We don’t get much out of the first one we see (Anna) and we get very little out of the last one (Maggie). The two in the flashbacks are the important ones.

Her first lover was a girl at West Point.

When Kate was charged with Homosexual conduct, she makes it clear that she would deny the charges if her lover, Sophie, were charged as well. Sophie is not charged, so she takes her discharge honorably.

Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, though recently repealed, had been a very important issue in modern LGBT literature and this one handles it admirably. The romance with her lover is sweet and tender, not unlike the young love between students of any genders in any part of the nation. Suddenly there’s punishment for this sweet little romance. The commanding officer makes it clear that she’s a great student and will make a fine officer one day. He is willing to reduce the disciplinary action for the charges if Kate will promise it won’t happen again. She’d be lying to say it was a mistake and won’t happen again, so she’s kicked out of the army. A loss to the service.

Her next girlfriend is a cop still in the closet.

Renee tries to save Kate from self destruction but Kate pushes her away. The scene is childish and spiteful but her rejection of Renee represents her rejection of the closet. Kate does, however, try to get her back throughout the story.

The two relationships Kate has during the main timeline of the comic are with women who are out of the closet. In both cases, Kate’s secrecy and lying is what drives them away. She rejected the closet in regards to being homosexual and condemned those who remained hidden. But she chose an even darker closet when she became the Batwoman, condemning herself to be alone.

There are, of course, other themes common to most LGBT literature, but they didn’t play as large a part as her coming out as gay and hiding herself as the Batwoman.

The Batman

All Batman heroes have some things that are common to them as well. Family tragedy is a major player in their drive to put on the mask.

Kate’s family tragedy is two parts. Both are spoilers, so stop here if you don’t want to be ruined.

Part one is the loss of her mother and twin sister. On their birthday, they’re out to celebrate and general masked bad guys crash into them and kidnap Kate, her sister Beth, and their mom. The next page is darkness with text of Kate crying and people yelling and gunshots.

The next few frames are of her father carrying her away and trying to make her only look at him. It shows what is assumed to be her mother’s body with the face hidden and a gunshot wound in the chest. It also shows what is assumed to be Beth’s arm and hair sticking out from under a blanket.

Thus the desire to protect and serve is born. This is common to most Batman heroes.

The second part of her family tragedy is killing her own sister.

Beth comes back. But Kate doesn’t know this person is her sister. Beth is a villain. When Kate is made privy to this information, it is when Kate is trying to keep the villain from falling to her death. Beth stabs Kate’s arm with a knife, making her let go. Beth falls to her death. And so goes the origin story of the Batwoman. Her mother and sister were taken from her and when she finds out her sister is alive, her only option is to kill her personally.

This makes Kate Kane, The Batwoman, one of the more emotionally crippled heroes of the Batman series. She comes with more angst than your average superhero, but that doesn’t stop her from being a hot redheaded lesbian Batman. And that’s important. Because that’s why I bought the book and probably why many others even glimpsed at the cover.

Though it was rushed and angsty, if you’re into LGBT lit or into Batman, I’d give it a shot. The worst that could happen is you don’t like it. What you have read will have been something of value anyway.

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Favorite Books I Won’t Review

Everyone has books they look back on fondly and recommend to anyone who asks. Those I will certainly review at some point. Then, there are the books that I would recommend to anyone who asks but can hardly remember anything about them.

Some of those are going to be listed here with what I do remember.

Shabanu: Daughter of the Wind by Suzanne Fisher Staples

O how I loved this book! It made a good deal of myself in seventh grade. Molded me in ways few books had. But I can’t really remember the plot. It’s a Middle Eastern girl coming of age in the desert. I remember an old woman giving her a beautiful shawl and her getting her first period and hiding it because she didn’t want to be married away. That’s about all I remember. I shall always look back on it fondly, though.

The Doom Stone by Paul Zindel
I have no idea how this book ends. It’s about a boy who’s studying Stonehenge with his archaeologist aunt. He meets this girl and they find a passage under the monuments. Inside is this monster that, if memory serves, was a differently evolved kind of human or ape. It had skin stretched across its skull and was horrifying. I think they discovered that there were lots of them and they had to keep them from being released upon the world above. That monster has stuck in my head and I even wrote a piece unwittingly featuring it before I remembered this book at all.

The Alienist by Caleb Carr
I have no idea how this one ends, either. I’m pretty sure I finished it, because it was a very good book. I can’t say for certain. This was a mystery. Detectives trying to find a serial killer who was targeting boy prostitutes. The scene that stuck in my head for this book was their finding the first victim of the killer. Mutilated naked teenage boy at the top of a clock tower, I think. I think he was missing body parts ala Jack the Ripper as well. The more gruesome and perverse a scene, the more it stays with me, it seems.

The Way to Rainy Mountain by N. Scott Momaday
This was a collection of bits and pieces, almost quilt-like, about an American Indian’s trip back to the lands his tribe came from. It was a pattern of Myth, Narrative, Documentary. I don’t remember shit about it. It was one of the required books for my first college English course. Unless there’s one I’m forgetting completely, this was the one that has stayed with me least. The patchwork style has stayed, but I haven’t a clue what the book actually said. Don’t tell Dr. Kulesz.

All the other books on my list I either remember enough for a real review or don’t remember enough for a blurb. Full reviews are coming soon. Feel free to look over my own writings in the mean time.

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